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Back in Black/Blue

Well, mono defiantly did a number on me.  It was def one wild ride while it lasted and I am so thankful that I was home with my family while it was affecting me.  I am pretty sure that if I was not at home and my mom was not taking care of me I would have died.  Thanks mommy.

According to the wikipedia Mono is part of the epstine-barr virus, which is in the same family as herpes.  Mono's primary way of being spread is through saliva.  This is why the disease is commonly referred to as the kissing disease.  If you have been involved with intense kissing with me in the past month then I would suggest that you have your doctor check for signs of mono.  I also apologize if that is the case...sorry. 

One can be infected with mono for 4-7 weeks before any sign of the disease will be apparent.  Symptoms include fever, fatigue, loss of appetite, soar throat, swollen lymph nodes in neck, extreme fatigue, enlarged spleen and liver, abdominal pain, aching muscles, jaundice, depression, weakness and skin rash.

At first I was experiencing a mild fever and fatigue.  Once the doctor determined that I had mono he ordered me to two weeks bed rest.  I then had to inform my boss that I was not going to be able to work.  I felt rather bad about this as I was only tired and had a fever, but doctors orders and all that jazz. 

At about the end of the first week that's when it hit.  I woke up and my lymph nodes where very swollen in my neck.  My neck looked prolly twice the size as what it normally does.  I had the most intense soar throat I have ever had in my life.  I never thought that a soar throat could cause so much that I A) could not sleep because of the pain B) started to cry because the pain was so bad C) took nyquil to make myself pass out because the pain was so bad.  This also forced me onto a liquid diet.  I was only able to eat milk shakes, they were really good and ever since then I have a lot of cravings for them, however the pain was so bad I could only eat half of them.  Half a milk shake a day for a week is not a good diet.

People have been asking what medications I was on during this time.  Here's the interesting thing.  Mono is a viral infection, this means that OJ and sleep are about the only things that will help get you better.  Once my throat was swollen the doc did prescribe some sweet meds to help with that.  I was given steroids which help get the swelling down in my throat.  I was also give Tylenol with codeine in it for the pain, that REALLY helped. 

When I first got the pain killer my Dad saw how much pain I was in and decided to give me a higher amount to get the medicine started.  I was not aware of this until much later.  The dosage was I either 1 teaspoon or 1 table spoon (I can't remember) every 3-4 hours or as needed.  Since I was not aware of what my dad did I thought that he had given me the normal amount.  When it came time for more I just took what my dad gave me.  So, it turns out that I was taking twice the recommended amount every 3 hours.  Needless to say, I was feeling pretty good.

Once I was feeling better and the doc said I was ok to return to work, I packed my stuff and I am now in charlotte again.  Most people thought I moved as they had not seen me out around town for a while.  I hope some of them thought I was dead.  Let me know if you thought I was dead.

It has never been harder to leave my family than this time.  I currently have plans to move back to VA and live with them.  I have determined that I can not live with out them and they are the most important thing in the world to me.  Since I was able to spend 2 weeks with them it was almost like a sneak pre-view.  I enjoyed that pre-view.

My first few days in Charlotte were really hard.  At one point I was crying on the phone with my sister.  after that I went to penguin with Jared and Devin.  That was such a fun night that it made me realize things are going to be ok.  I have fun down here and I can deal with no family near by, but it will be good to get back home.

During this experience I achieved ubber 1337 nerd dome.  Along with Josh and Marshall I started playing magic the gathering again.  I am a nerd.  I also played in a draft tournament last night.  It was a lot of fun.  I got crushed.  I was playing a black/blue deck that was totally week and needed way more creatures.  I had fun though.

I have plans to continue with black/blue.  it seems like a good combo.  I also saw superman.  I really enjoyed it.  More then I enjoyed X3. 

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"An Explanation of the Lost ARG"

"A lot of you may be wondering exactly what this Lost Experience is. It's simple. An alternate reality game, or ARG, is a "game" of sorts created in connection with a movie, video game, or in this case, a television show. Some popular examples of successful ARGs were the ones for Steven Spielberg's movie A.I. and the videogame Halo 2.

What exactly is an ARG? The writers of the show create this for us as a treat for fans, some Lost goodness for after the season is over. Basically, the game will consist of a network of clues that they have scattered all over in various places. There will be websites made just for this, telephone numbers to call, places to go to (literally), it can be anything. We find all the clues and figure out what they mean, and in the end, we learn more about the story of the show and the show's mythology. The creators want to tell us parts of Lost's story they can't fit into the show. An example would be telling us more about The Hanso Foundation, and other such details of Lost's mythology.

We have been told that the first clue will be a telephone number that will be shown during the commercials on the new episode on May 3. Once people call it, it will lead them to the next step, and so on. Along the way we'll be finding out more of Lost's story. This section of the site will be a place to discuss what is found and try to figure out what it all means. If anyone has any more questions, please feel free to ask here."

This is an excerpt taken from the "Lost experience" Blog which can be accessed by going to thehansofoundation.org or by entering the numbers from the show.  If you don't know what numbers I am referring to then you are already several steps behind in the game, that means your not winning.

I am currently in the middle of watching season 1 on DVD.  I become interested in the show when I started to hear about other forms of media referencing the show in them.  For instance: during attack of the show when they were reviewing a issue of the comic book "gotham" the cover was a mug shot of one of the main characters holding her information.  Part of the info on the picture, where those numbers are in the mug shot, where the "numbers" that lost fans are haunted by.

Recently I was invited over by my friend Jennifer Catorino to partake in viewing the last episode of season 2 of lost.  I knew it was something I would enjoy, knowing that I would be very behind and clueless to most of the story, I decided to join in the fun.  I was quickly hooked and asked to borrow season one on DVD from her.  She said yes and after almost 5 disc of episodes in about 4 days I have come across, as well as other things, the above information concerning the lost ARG.

Today I having been searching the Internet for all sorts of clues. going to the fake websites. finding the passwords and entering them at sublymonal.com to watch the videos.  Looking at personal blogs of other lost fans who have found some clues.  Reviewing the forums.  Listening to fake podcasts.  Reading about mythology.  I am totally addicted now.

Their is already a lot of info out there on the sites and I intend to find out everything I can from them.  I have already learned a lot and I would go into detail on those "answers" that I have come across, but there is to much for now.  I need a little more time for that.

This is the type of thing that I find interesting.  Blogs are for posting your interests.  Thus...

If anybody see's something that needs to be corrected, has any info such as clues, what issues of gotham that was, is a fan and wants to talk about lost, or wants to watch lost sometime.  I would greatly appreciate it.

Zach out

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I am way emo!!!

I say this because I think about way to much

The queen says's she loves me

I was having a weird night tonight.  I have been feeling like my karma has been off for the past 2 weeks. 

Before I continue I will address my philosophy on Karma.  I have not looked at the wikipedia to find the technical definition of Karma.  from my understanding it is the spiritual balance that affects ones life.  It is the belief that everything will come back to you.  thus, Karma would work like this: I am nice to a stranger, a stranger will then be nice to me at some point.  If I am mean to a stranger, a stranger will be mean to me at some point.  I know that karma is rooted in Hinduism, however I am not a practitioner of this religion.  I am not apposed to this religion, I am a Christian, I just see a philosophy that I agree with that comes from that vein a belief.

I have no clue why I feel this way, I just do.  It's to the point that ppl are asking me if I am ok.  The only thing I can think of is that I want to be close to my family and friends in VA.  I am moving back to VA in August, that is a def.  I tell people that could be the only concept of my life that is bringing me down.  With the above understanding of karma in place, this aspect of my life should not be affecting my karma.

In the confusion of stumbling around as a confused young adult with bad karma, I feel alone.  PPl who have known me for a while will recognize that I feel this way a lot.  I usually end up isolating myself so that I don't hang out with my friends during this time.  This can be a very bad thing to do.

Upon my last visit to home (VA).  I was discussing with my mother some of these feelings and my friends in both VA and NC.  She pointed out that ppl love me no matter where I go.  I have the ability to make friends.  I have told ppl that I am moving back home and they seem rather upset by the whole ordeal. 

I must do what I must do.  I know they want me to stay, but my friends up north want to have me back.  I know both places really do love me.  I have support from both parties.  No matter what either side says, one cannot feel love from another being.  One must have a love for themselves to be satisfied. 

These friends that I have down here show me love and help me when I am down.  I try and do the same for them.  They don't want me to move away from them.  This queen city of Charlotte tells me it loves me, but I must be around those that make me love myself.  That is what I find in VA.  That is what makes it worth a 6 hour drive for less than 24 hours of time with those I indulge in drinks and gambling with.

I am not looking down or communicating negative thoughts to my NC friends.  If anything I am letting myself reveal the weak parts of my consciousness ness to those here in charlotte with me so that they now how I feel.  I am not satisfied and nothing can change that other than me. 

I do appreciate your concerns and you do help.  My philosophy may be completely off and you could change it, but this is how I feel.  Thanks for your help.

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In a swirl of crazy dancing I see that I am starting to feel like I have friends in NC!!!!!!  Don't you all wish you could feel that same (that's such a jerk thing to say!). I really do feel like I am starting to make friends down here though.  I have yet to meet some body who I can really play games with and stuff though, and that plane old sucks.

I miss my family so much.  Jenn, I almost cry when I think about not being there with you.  I am trying to make events happen so that I can go see the arctic monkeys with sophia, Her boy, and courtney in Atlanta.  I don;t think that will happen cause 3 of the other managers at work already requested off.  I will however being going to see the strokes in Ashville on the 26th with leslie.  That will be good.

I was talking with my ASM katie today and she said she could totally see me being higher than a shift.  I have always seen myself more than what I am.  Which is weird cause I always sell myself short, but now more than every I know I can do anything, prolly better than the ppl doing them right now.  I am not getting cocky, I am just realizing who I am and what I can do.  I want to take my SB career as far as it can go.

Some other ppl at work are prolly going to drop the bomb on my SM and tell them are leaving or something around that same time.  I could potentially get stuck their for longer, b ut there is no way in Hell I will le tthat happen.  I am moving back to VA in august and that is that.

If all my VA friends and family would move to someplace ridiculously awesome then I would be there in a heart beat, but I really don't want to move back to FXBG.  I hate to say this guys, but that town blows big time.  It's true.  If certain ppl were not there, not moving back.  I don't plan on being there that long.  I want to go to full sail and become a game designer.  That school is amazing.  I will go there.  I will move back first.

Now lets talk about the big one...RELATIONSHIPS!!!!!!   DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!  THis is the good stuff folks.  here goes.  I dated Alicia.  I told her I loved her.  I loved her.  I was thinking about being with her forever.  I decided this is not what I wanted.  I decided I was not ready for commitment.  I broke her heart.  I hurt somebody more that I ever thought I would.  I don't want to date anybody because i know I am not ready for anything other than mild/heavy flirting/making out on the dance floor.  Stay away from relationships unless you know what your getting into.  That's all I have to say.  Ya I have somebody in mind, but not more than the above terms for dating me.  I won't settle for one person until I am ready damn it. 

that's what I am rambling about.  I like to blog about these things.

Now leave some comments and I will leave some back..........................................ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!